Thursday, April 11, 2013

What Makes You Think

So I spent the morning in the ER, with an allergic reaction to WHO KNOWS WHAT!? Given the time and mentally quiet experience after lots of medications, I began to think about life and people. I take pictures of life every day, so here are mine from today's experience.

The classic bracelet pic. 

Seems like fun right?

Bored as heck and happily medicated. 

Feeling much better and welling has gone down! Yippie!

So why you ask, am I even writing about this? Today was hard for me physically (duh) but mentally and emotionally as well. You see, the doctor woke me up to ask me who was coming to pick me up from the hospital because of the meds I couldn't drive. I realize I had people I could have called, but the people I would have called are no where near here. I realized...


This is a hard time for us because he is an hour and a half north of here and I don't get to see him as much as I would like to. He is working crazy hours, as am I. The drive sucks and we are just plain missing each other. I wanted to cry right then and there when she asked me that. 

Our dilemma is one that MANY couple go through, especially Christian couples. At this point the easiest thing for him to do would be to move in with me and we would figure life out together. But from being raised Southern Baptist and reading the bible, that is not the right thing to do prior to marriage. This dilemma has been brought up many times and J will respect my decision either way. But it's a hard one, I just wanna see him every day and get on with life. At the same time, I do not want to disobey my Savior. Keeping all of that in mind is this why Christian couples get married so soon in relationships? Because they feel that they can't live together prior? We wanna get married because we love each other not because we need a better financial situation. See my confusion? If you don't, that's ok too. Lots of couples live together before marriage. But we can't decide if it's for us. 

Bottom line...I miss my best friend, I miss my man. 



  1. I hope you're feeling better, dear! It's really hard being two hours away from Beau, but I'm also against living together before we're married.

    If we moved to another state, like if he gets a really good transfer for work (I can do my job anywhere), then I'm okay with living together IF we're engaged. That's pretty much it.

  2. Stick to your values and your morals. Don't give up and give in now, that is what Satan wants you to do, not what God desires and has commanded. You can do it! Philippians 4:13 :)

    Your second cousin,
    Marie (O'Neal) Rollins